Friday, 11 December 2009
What a mess you got me into this time
I suppose we all go different paths in the end, I mean nothing lasts forever ok, fock it. Im single shit there i said it, I got dumped. I hate her, i love her ya know. I'm kinda lost in a fog but I know which stars to follow(celestial not terrestrial) and i have a keen sense of direction I can point east without thinking most of the time.
The amount of people who have been giving it you'll be alright, is mean what if she was the one. My other personality slaps me in face and says get 'over it' i mean the other side of my personality
Monday, 23 November 2009
They Junk Times are Changin........

Hi folks. Love and light to all
I had a thought today, kinda heavy one. I was reading Junky by Lonesome Cowboy Bill (Bill Burroughs) anyway i was reading the part when he was in Lexington. Dolophine or Methadone was ectremly controlled.
I know my drugs for several reasons but 'kicking the gong around' has been one, so has the 'pure radge trainspotting' expereince has too. Ive seen the needle and the damage done so to speak, Im seeing people at the chemist picking up 200/300ml of methadone daily DAILY. Back then they were lucky enough if the got enough to keep the rattles away, many did better in Bills day quiting on the street cos there was stronger stuff about and you could buy paregoric and Opium but to quote bill 'a white guy couldn't make a wong''clom fliday' he(bill)would always say they would say, invariable they did
300 ml that as strong as 30ml of Oramorph. What are they playing at its not healthy but they're trying to drag the Crime Rates down, if you smoke one joint of 'soap bar and start spilling it yourself, man its brilliant' as i was told.
One thing hated most by Doctors ,weirdly, is addits that can function normaly, the ones who buy a bit of this or every bit of this or that(pharamacutical, with a label ya know) What i would give to be One of the Characters in Drug store Cowboy, god i wouldn't care if I was a junkie if i was shooting Dilauded or Fentenyl or anything opiated.
Heroin addicts are addicted to heroin, why don't they give them HEROIN its a fucking waste of a life sometimes to be put on Methadone, most keep using, why did i need to be one of the preachy ones who said 'never again' They get better drugs from the doctor and they get put up every time they get tested.
Back to the beggining most Counselors are pathetic they know about as much about drugs as a newbie junkie greeting on the street cos he thinks his first rattles are the worst he'll expereince.
It all comes together that the Gov, Health System would if they could kill all the addicts and Meth is one way to go about it read this for example:
“Methadone Is Not Best When It Keeps One Addicted For Decades”
Extract Research Notes;
http://www.drugaddictionrx.info/patient/methadonemedicine.html
By Peter Vanderkloot (Advocate For Peoples Rights)
Extract Para (1) Or Do I Emphasize Methadone The Institution-System Of Chemical Parole That Endevours To Keep 10s Of Thousands Of The Most Vurnable Under The Perverse And Avaricious Bureacracy ? Extract Para (4) The Reality Is Also; The System Through Which Methadone Is Provided Is A Uniquely Oppressive Bureacracy That Greatly Reduces The Benefits Of The Medication And Generates Harm Where None Existed Before,Methadone Is Itself A Tool Of Harm Reduction ,The System That Controls Methadone Is A System Of Harm Production. Para (6) The Most Obvious Harm Caused By The Clinic System Is Due To The Attendance Requirements. The Entire System Is Designed Around Observed Ingestion ,And Continual Monitoring.
They want as many young kids fucked up zombies. And dont get me started about ZimovaneWe used to be freinds?
I don think i need to add much text exept check out the Atiictrap on YukTube, Its where i put my vids.
Sunday, 22 November 2009
Saturday, 14 November 2009
Wow just when you thought it was safe to by pharms again.....
Psychonuats of a certain age will remember Jellie Eggs especially in Scotland. It was a drug that gave shall we say a unique head. You would wake up, not me personally drinking on pharms is a recipe for disaster, but i did get attacked by these kinda Jellied out nutters. You see if you 'fought passed the sleepy mellow feeling without falling asleep' you would get a 'great Dunt' which involved you not knowing what the fuck you where doing for around a night, who you where and extremely out of it and dangerous, They didn't take them off the streets ever , they took the inject able ones filmed with a goo that would re-solidify in the shooters veins. You know that line in 'The needle and the damage done' 'Milk blood to keep from running out' is a reference to backpulling or fluching where the herion mixed blood in the syringe is drawn back into the barrel and re injected, sounds stupid until you realise that every push and pull brings a little rush back to you, Well doing that with jellies is Russian roulette the drug problem caused vein problems which killed halve the junkie population of Glasgow. And now kids a drug similar has returned. Zimovane isn't inject able, YET. They'll find a way but it has been found in bags of heroin as a cutting agent. This is a drug that MAKES your completely out of control. You Americans know it as Ambien. You know that lost out in space driving to work at 3 am in your bunnny suit like Rush Limbuagh feeling, no, well you dont want to.
As to the power of Zimovane some have gone shoplifting thinking there invisible.
I laugh at these fools, only Tamazepam makes you invisible.
Friday, 13 November 2009
Austin Osman Spare - The Satyre Of Sigils
"The means used and the way it happens are simple, the inverse of scientific. I use a traditional formula, created by instinctive guess and *arbitrarily* formed, not evolved by hypothesis and experiment. The law of sorcery is its own law, using sympathetic symbols."
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"Science, like Logic and Psychology, is its own bogey and as neurotic as its own creed; its fear of deviation from its arbitrary standards and categories confirms all the definitions of the psychopathic... Science also has to await its rare artist -- to make an audacious guess for enlightenment or mutation. For me, the inexplicable of beauty, the undivulged of things gives them their enchantment, not their known meaning."
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"I have never yet witnessed any occult phenomena where money was involved whether for expenses or anything else (I preclude the odd symbolic silver coin)."
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"Finally, scientists will never solve or prove anything related to foretelling the future; it is a work for 'artists'. Science may subsequently prove more fully what the artists have already discovered."
|I hope they are as fascinating to you as me.
Thursday, 12 November 2009
The eight pointed star
Aida
by Vinzent Pronova
"Aida" by Austin Osman Spare is a rather large (30W x 20H) pastel on board picture. Executed in 1954 this piece represents an excellent example of the artist's "automatic" drawing.
The head and torso of an enigmatic woman of regal bearing and wearing an egyptian headdress, (Ureas), dominates the center of the composition. She peers haughtily to her left, breasts bared at the lower edge of the depiction, illuminated from below by a dim, reddish light. Aida's line of sightseems to be directed at a weird facial image emerging from the chaotic field to her left and front. To her right background, unformed shapes swirl mindlessly upward.
Despite the seeming lack of of distinct focal points, this artwork possesses a strong sense of depth, arising from the forceful presentation of the queen, her position relative to the formlessness to he right, and to the emergent visage to her left front. The unformed void area is distinctly behind; the chaos field and face are distinctly forward. The contrast between the drisply drawn features of Aida and the wild vagueness within which she is surrounded further accentuates the visual depth of this work.
Remember -- A.O. Spare was a gifted draughtsman, with formal training including the Royal College of Art. His technical ability cannot be disputed.
Inasmuch as artistic efforts may be manifestations of True Will, visual artworks are magickal works. A.O. Spare's skill as an artist has found some critical acceptance, less so, his abilities as a sorceror. Now, AOS's occult skills are once again being understood, and with this understanding, his magick is becoming re-known. Spare's art has been characterized as of magical inspiration, and in some cases of being intrinsically magickal. Not all works have a full measure of both -- intuition strongly suggests that Aida does.
When viewing the picture, the question: "Who is she?" lurches to the forefront. AOS drew for himself, and as the agent of those beings to whom he was receptive. What then of Aida? A temporal door? An invitation? The opportunity to experience the Spareian vision, or the vision of Aida...?
By accout, AOS often relied upon middle aged men or older prostitutes for his models, yet in Aida, he imbued his his subject with beauty, power, and majesty: This may be a woman who has experienced the world, but in doing so clearly has not lost her authority or her destiny. She appears as the Empress, or perhaps the High Priestess...?
Wherein lies the source of her power? To what end has this force been imparted to her? By what means?
This drawing is a magical icon. An entity evoked by the artist, Aida has been made corporeal within the visual spectrum by Spare's application of color upon the board.
Art may be more powerful than words. In his "Focus of Life", AOS states: "Art is the truth we have realized of our belief." Assuming that he was referring to his artwork, this seems to validate the speculation offered by Jaques Rigaut/Genesis P. Orridge in the essay "Virtual Mirrors in Soud T.I.M.E.":
"All his writings are symbolic, they were never intended to be taken literally... They are appendices to the REAL work... His drawings, paintings, and images... They are in fact, the essence of his sorcery."
Upon viewing "Aida", her characterization of visual formula becomes reified -- Effecting some depths of mind, she becomes an access point to "otherwhere". Her moment, encompassing her existence, manifests her creation and her destruction; her coming from and going to, hence opens as a portal to her All. This drawing is Magick. To again cite "Virtual Mirrors":
"Spare's pictures can hold the entirety of the images and entities that he represents... They are there."
What character the name "Aida" may have been assigned to is irrelevant to experienceing this picture; as ntoed the woman depicted is queenly, yet also priestess-like. Whether she is an Empress or the Hierophanta may be a subjective determination. An exploration of her charms and wonders promises to be lengthy.
What remains immediate and apparent, is that this picture has magickal attributes, and that these energies are potent enough that discussing them does not diminish them. As in another quote:
"Such drawings are themselves the gateway to the Sabbath; one is drawn into a vortex and whirled down the funnel of consciousness which explodes into unknown worlds."
This then, is "Aida", who at the very least, leaves us with an apprehension of A.O. Spare's Sorcery.
--Vinzent Pronova
I copy this from http://www.chaosmatrix.org/ PLEASE VISIT
I Think I am very impressed with AOS.
Monday, 9 November 2009
FNORD

FNORD.
If you dont see them they cant eat you. Well walking the dog I a fnord build in steel.
I can see no reason for it to be there well hidden in the dark for people to crash into, its on a main road. The stripes are more like a Zebras camoflage thna a warning.
Saturday, 31 October 2009
Hmmmm Skyscraper I love you.
There is a whole generation n love with the chemical skyscraper. I don't drink but I would never turn my nose up at pharmaceutical drugs say i found them innocently. The company's make all these drugs that make you feel great they ban them. have they absolutely lost it.
A Gov. advisor in the UK go the sack, no mind he's an ADVISOR to the PM he was sacked when the PM didn't take his or any of his colleagues in the DAB(Drug Advisory Board) a board set up to advise on drug policy when it said Cannabis Should not be Criminalised. Hmmmmm Hear what he wants to hear.
I had a thought what if me and a thousand people(official amount to start a religion in the UK) got together and called ourselves I dunno the Tree of Golden Light Worshippers, Worship Pot and take it as a sacrament. Now there would be more to it than that but Under the UNHRC you can take any sacrament that doesn't involve killing humans (Blame the Protocols of Zion, that viscous piece of Fascist literature, boys blood for of all things Matzo Balls Jeez Fun-dies and racist have little imagination for that)Go think, you know if it worked we'd have the biggest religion in the United Kingdom
Tuesday, 27 October 2009
Smoke Em If Ya Got Them.

This stuff to the left is salvia divinorum, weird stuff indeed. It has some combination of LSA and other chemicals in it that make this innocuous looking green shrub like relative of Sage something hip.
I have only tried it a few times, and that's not like I ended up getting put off it, no I enjoyed my experiences. I just haven't been bothered enough to get a train to the location of the Nearest Market that has a head stall.
One night was absolutely different to my other experiences with this stuff. It was six times extract, through a two foot water pipe. Now I had just had the ordinary stuff, just the ordinary leaves before so I just iron lunged it down. I have been described as a owner of a pair of leather lungs due to the way i completely drag a spliff(If I'm lucky enough to get past one) or cigarette or cigar(I'm a open opportunity smoker). My Friend who had gave me some of his extract to try, who had warned me it was strong could hardly contain himself as he watched me huff more of the stuff than he had ever seen. I held it in for around a minute. Then i passed him the bong. 'Nothings happening' he looked at me.
Then it was as if I was watching him through a tunnel, all I could see was his face and the rest of what I could see was like a kaleidoscope round him like shifting mandalas. I lay back closed my eyes and it was similar to the moment in 2001 when he says 'its full of stars' and goes into hyperspace, it was so similar I wondered if my body WAS actually getting stretched by my entry to hyperspace. In under two minutes i was back on the couch 20 Min's later I was at baseline.
I can see what the fuss is about, but i will say its weird.
Saturday, 24 October 2009
Thursday, 22 October 2009
How to walk with kings and baffoons
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!
I know its new of those lame ones that nearly everybody puts up in a moment of distress but it helps.
Tuesday, 20 October 2009
Economic Meltdow causes stupidtity outbreak
One symptom are these 'send us your gold, as golds never been higher in price for bullion' adverts in which you see them melting down what is supposed to be 'junk jewellery' for bullion. I'm sorry to say most of these pieces of jewellery are actually worth more as jewellery. The craftsman ship should count for something. So all these suckers are getting is scrap value for something they would get more cash for selling privately to a high street jewellers/ Is this a scam to get it all back melt it down then sell it back. Hmmmmmm
Cash Converters they really should be forced to have on there sign, 'talking a big stick to the poor for years and proud'
Monday, 19 October 2009
Selling Tresured Items

If I am contemplating selling my first Wolverine comic, life must be getting desperate. E Bay's a rip off and half the pawnshops or Bargain shops or whatever they are really don't help, truth be told they move into a town and relentlessly take a baseball bat to the poor.
I've got old PC's monitors but for some reason no one in this ecological day and age wants to repair things and do them up. God I upgraded my PC from a 2 MB piece of shit that could hardly play Myst(yes I'm old) to a 50GB with whistles and bells before I finally decided to by a new one after repairing it became financially unviable.
Its a damn good monitor, I can find a good home for it but I need cash.
I might sell my guitar,(arrrrrrrrrrrrrgh that holds special pain) I don't know, maybe my computer will go and I'll use my crappy laptop then upload/download everything at a internet cafe.
Light a candle for the poor folks I would of when I could afford em.
'Ya say pal I couldn't Bum a cigarette, I couldn't;'t usually do this sort of thing but you know how it is for a American Abroad' Humph Bogey(cant remember the films name but he's in South America in it, obviously trying to bum a smoke)
Sunday, 18 October 2009
Dear Boss from Hell
I really thought the grating guitar and the phrase 2:1 in Elastica's song suited the From Hell comic so i did this as the last of my little Moore tributes now i need to start making some original stuff.
Today's been the usual Sunday, never get enough time with Athenisis. We lay in the fresh sun of a Sunday more and soaked up the intimacy of just being together. Tempus Fugit unfortunately. All
too brief.
Well thats it but I'm no making any vids likt that again, way to much interest. (sarc.)
Friday, 16 October 2009
Thursday, 15 October 2009
Tuesday, 13 October 2009
Friday, 9 October 2009
Thursday, 8 October 2009
Wednesday, 7 October 2009
People are Finding Me - Find the others - Find a purpose
Living with your parents can have its highs and lows. Its great living in the attic of the bank of M n D. Its hard to explain to potential partners that 'No Its not just my Bedroom its a full flat' To them your a sad 30 year old living with your parents not someone taking advantage of a great situation.
As the day has progressed Ive started to look on the bright side. I've started settling in early in this 'depression' so at least when the rest of the 30 something office workers and such lose there jobs and move back in with there parents, I'll have the best (I dunno, Ive heard the term Granny Flat but Never Loser-son flat) Loser-Son Attic Flat.
Anyway it doesnt help much my brothers have all been pretty successful house wives kids ya know. Now I never wanted kids, I still dont, i dont rule out my mind changing but I'm not planning for them. It must cost near 50,000 pounds to bring up a kid, probably more. I could go to the Amazon or Egypt for that kind of money.
How did I get onto the subject of kids, must be The Super Moby Dick of Space making me think strangely. What the hell where the writers smoking with that one. I can se them with a big spliff in the Story Board Room
'He hehehehe Right its a flying whale' guffaw guffaw 'and guess what' holds in laughter 'Its got a tiny red cape' as the rest of them piss themselves in laughter
Thanks to all who have found my blog and left comments. This is so much easier for me than making vids.
Oh yeah now Im skint i might sell my comics what do folk think?
Tuesday, 6 October 2009
Trying to Start again
Well that is it that's what I have to do. Start something else. New Job, college course, uni course or even just something that pays well and has little free time, sounds weird looking for little free time, but if I earn and have time on my hands I don't save, I drink.
I want to travel a lot. Wanderlust. My brothers in New Zealand but i didn't get on with him famously with him when he was here but it never came to blows. Well it is a thought. I've always wanted to see Middle Earth.
Hope to have more vids up I have asked a few Friends if I can put some of there work up. Some havent replied and I asked them quiet a while ago.
Hope To have something soon.
Friday, 17 July 2009
Gia's Gift - By Jackinthegreen23
How can something so beneficial be illegal. More to the point as Bill Hicks said 'how can you make a plant against the law that's like saying God made a mistake'. I've seen, heard and read so much that it is impossible to think the people that make this crazy legislation do not know that this plant is a potential answer to many of the Earth's problems and many health problems.
Five fantastic Facts about Cannabis:
- Nobody has ever overdosed, period, ever not one never, do you get the picture.
- As a medicine Cannabis can ease many illnesses and disorders for arthritis to Multiple Sclerosis to migraines and period pains(Queen Victoria took a medicine containing Cannabis for exactly that, she reportedly had a bit of a coke habit but i cant confirm that)
- Hemp can displace cotton which is usually grown with massive amounts of chemicals harmful to people and the environment. 50% of all the world's pesticides are sprayed on cotton.
- Hemp can displace wood fibre and save forests for watershed, wildlife habitat, recreation and oxygen
- At a volume level of 81%, hemp oil is the richest known source of polyunsaturated essential fatty acids (the "good" fats). It's quite high in some essential amino acids, including gamma linoleic acid (GLA), a very rare nutrient also found in mother's milk
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
Tuesday, 14 July 2009
Friday, 10 July 2009
Disinfo's 2012-Sceince or Supperstition Review(yes its a bit late)
Anyway back to film and its contents. Its really one of those pieces of film not intended to make you any the wiser. Just to give you as many conflicting interpretations of what could would and should be happening depending on your reality tunnel.
To me it would be easy to dismiss the whole 2012 thing as lunacy if it where not for three things converging on that date. The solar maximum is predicted for 2012 by science that new body of magick that's all respectable now its grown up from alchemy. That really is something portentous in its own right. As we live in a world warming as i type this due to mankind's effects on the planet(or so we are told, i really dunno who to believe on that one) this will make weather intense as more energy as thrown into our biosphere and there is the possibility of rolling blackouts due to Electromagnetic Pulses. If the flares aren't powerful enough for blackouts they'll easily wipe out un-hardened satellites. This according to the afore mentioned documentary film.
The second is the convergence of the new technology. I have heard many scholars say that information will start doubling around the year 2012, with possibly even the fabled singularity where AI takes of exponentially increasing its intelligence. Alan Moore has said "around the year 2015 information will be doubling every couple of minutes I can't imagine the culture that would exist after an explosion of information like that. Culture may move from its liquid state to boiling point and turn straight to steam" in the Mind scape of Alan Moore. Hes got a lot of things right in his predictive fiction most notably surveillance UK in the V for Vendetta strip.
Last but not least and most of the documentary film hinges on this. The Mayan Calender finishing its long count with a presumed deluge. Many great floods. There numerous indigenous American predictions that the 2012 date will be a time of tribulation, i hesitate to us that word but with the flash fire brush wars and the toxic shock that seems to be hitting mankind right now. I hope ol' Saint McKenna was right and we are producing antibody's like the Hippies and Ravers. 'Right now we are six billion people standing on each others shoulders trying to make our selfs happy by kicking each others teeth in, where's that at?'He was right. Lets hope if anything 2012 is a chance to change that.
I must say its a good watch.
6 out 7 Riders of he Apocalypse for this one
Thursday, 2 July 2009
The Problem and the Owl
The buffalo came up and said 'Give me the secret and I will trample it into the plains where it will take them many years to find'
'No' Creator said 'They'll look for it in the plains soon enough'
'The Salmon said 'I'll take it to the bottom of the Great Lakes'
The Creator was unmoved from his Glumness 'They'll look for it at the bottom of lakes soon enough'
The Mole came and said he would take it to the centre of the earth.
'They'll look there too' The glumness now seemed to envelope the creator like a garment.
The Eagle squawked 'This is no good. I shall fly it to them moon, they'll never get there'
The creator smiled at the Eagle but said no, they'll look theyre too'
Silence reigned for a moment till the Owl spoke. The Owl held the creator in its gaze and said 'Put it inside them, they'll never look there'
The creator said 'Done!!' and smiled intently
Friday, 19 June 2009
TechnoCalyps: Preparing for the Singularity
Its not hard to see that new technologies are first and foremost used to kill other people. The explosion in technologies that accompanied the I and II world wars was as a simple consequence of people wanting to be able to enforce there will on others by the use of exploding munitions and one on one combat to make the other bend to there will. People accuse me of taking Terminator or even the Unabomber to seriously. But what if..... Why on earth would any sentient computer want to keep us around. We need to remember that these 'thinking AI machines' probably wont exist on an empathic or emotional system, they'll use cold logic and in the light of cold logic we are just a virus destroying a planet, a planet we need to survive. Not a hard or difficult decision to get rid of a virus, but that is exactly how we will be seen by anything with a logic based brain. Even logic based humans end up pretty nihilistic.
I don't want to stop progress or even stop technologies from being invented. A moratorium on what we're actually trying to do. Why is it such a crime to stop and look around.
Wednesday, 17 June 2009
Who Is the Attic Tramp
A. No, I just dress like one and hope to travel as much as one
Q. What's with the Attic thing
A. I live in an attic. and spending quite a lot of time thinking and pondering making folk think I live in my head too much or in 'my attic' I thought it was a groovy coincidence.
Q. What do you do.
A. Currently unemployed. I think a lot, I read a lot and i hope to write a lot. I think We are heading down a strange and new path as a species and i want to write and talk about the implications of this.
Q. Are you one of those Reptile seeing conspiracy fruits.
A No but there are a lot of conspiracies not involving Reptiles, or Royal Bloodlines
Q. What do you do with your free time.
A Talk to Friends, smoke ciggies and generally be lazy.
Q. YOU HAVE FRIENDS
A. Yes i even have a girlfriend




